U R Math

u were math
u were a binary spread on 2 systems of loose associations with an unreconciled past
u r the primary brush fires being clearcut of the prior lifestyles of some1 who may have once been important 2 some1 else
these r the same correlations often triggered by recollections of pop songs
a song opening ur memories like a time capsule
only it is ur brain transmitting signals of familiarity from the recesses where the primary u is actively stored

u r the stems of a secondary wave of fire that has openly consumed much of every previous self
1 that grew into the 1st partner
the 1st lover
the 1st friend
scorned & reborn in2 a 2nd self
from the bottom of old cavern & asked 2 move closer 2 autonomy on ur unsteady new legs

u r nihilism now
tearing down 2 rebuild ur fresh world apart from the ideologies of all previous selves
a self-powered machine prepared 2 reject all unwarranted criticisms

u r now a thread-bound bible about eschewing established routines & vices
ending primary & second selves 2 bring forward a tertiary brush fire
u r a new math
a realized actualization
actualizing the factual remains of the memorabilia that was u
& ur sex treated like TV tropes motivating a hierarchy of self-development
u r math
older than u remember
alone & with people of every actual past acting on a path without u

u r a service 2 disembody the acknowledgement of who u were
2 become what you can
as the image of ur present


dont let them c me like this
dont let them c


our integrity bled out on the battlefield
then it was drowned in ejaculate
stay away from us


our integrity bled out on the battlefield
then it was drowned in ejaculate
stay away from us


sure this is a dialogue
a conversation as robust as residual trace semen slapped on a wall by an elated cumpony fuckboi with shoddy aim
after rhythmically pulling out upon ejaculation
less human
but wholely human
but i guess all of our standards lower after we make such crass domestic leaps
depreciating the shared values all mutual contributions